Ella's SOAPBOX
Handmade Natural Soap on a Mission
It is my purpose to see that Ella continues to inspire people and to bring hope, faith and love to those who need it.


As I approach year three without Ella, I find that December once again has brought great joy and great sadness and once again, they coexist in a way that is so delicate and so complex that I still find that words fall short of describing it.  
I am changed.  There is a time before Ella and a time since Ella.  Those days each year that are the days she was with us are so sacred.  And so few.
My grief is a part of who I am.  I am the sister, the friend, the daughter, the wife and the mother that I am because I carried her, I held her, and because she lives in me.  I carry her forward still and there is not a moment in my life that I am not acutely aware of her absence. It is painful and at times it feels like a boulder on my chest, but it is no longer lonely.  I can no longer find loneliness in my grief. Instead I find Brad. I find my mom, my dad and my sister. I find Lennox and Iris. And I come here and I find all of you. Thank you for all of your kindness.  Thank you for sharing her with me.

I have met many other loss parents this year.  I am grateful for each of them and I am proud of their determination, their vulnerability and their courage.  Each of them has helped me just by taking their next breath, but many have done so much more. I wrote this past fall that the platform of Ella’s Soapbox does not belong to me and with love, I have asked to share their babies and their stories.  The first five are ready for the world.
I would like to share with you Clive, Winnie, Rebecca, Faith, and Kenley.



Ella's Rainbow Walk to Remember Pregnancy and Infant Loss
​​ ​​ See pictures from the 2nd Annual Ella's Rainbow Walk to Remember at Scott R Gane Photography here.

Thanks to those who graciously sponsored and those who walked alongside us, were able to donate $1,270 each to Duke University's Anencephaly Research Study and to Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep Remembrance Photography.  Additionally, as a volunteer photographer himself, Scott is donating 100% of photo sales to Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep.